What do I want??

Main Entry: dis·place
Pronunciation: (")dis-'plAs
Function: transitive verb
Etymology: probably from Middle French desplacer, from des- dis- + place place
1 a : to remove from the usual or proper place; specifically : to expel or force to flee from home or homeland b : to remove from an office, status, or job c obsolete : to drive out : BANISH 2 a : to move physically out of position b : to take the place of (as in a chemical reaction) : SUPPLANT synonym see REPLACE - dis·place·able /-'plA-s&-b&l/ adjective
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My mother says that I am displaced. I suppose I am. Nothing is how I know it to be, and everything in my life is uncertain. What to do ?? What to do?? My mother can hardly wait to marry me off. I suppose then whe won't worry about me as much if I am someone else's problem. I have absolutely zero interest in ever getting married again. I think marriage is stupid. My mother says that I just need to figure out what I want in a boy- I know exactly what I want. I want the Mon, Wed, Fri, boy (not necessarily in that order- but a part time boy- let me explaine..) I would like someone that has some similar interests as me, but enough of a difference that he can show me new things. I don't want to see the boy all the time, just enough that I know he is still interested, perhaps on the nights that I do not have my kids- I have no interest in introducing the boy to my kids. They would be dating me, not my children so what's the point?? I want respect. I want great sex, and alot of it. I want spontaneity. I do not care about living the dream: I do not want it all- just a little piece. I want monogamy- but not marriage. I want trust and openness. I want honesty. I want someone to not call everyday necessarily, but call when they say they will. I want someone who will look me in the eye. I want someone who wants to see me, to spend time with me, to talk to me and to know me. I want someone who has there own life and so not to be dependent on mine, but I want them to share part (not all) of there life with me. I do not want to be taken care of. I do not want shadiness, I do not want someone that can not tell me the truth. I do not want a roommate. I do not want games. I do not want unfaithfulness. I do not want someone with anger issue. I do not want a marriage proposal. I do not care about money (they sure as fuck are not going to support this girl.), I do not care about material things. I do care about the quality of person that they are and there ability to be on the same page as me- with no questions asked... and did I mention lots of great sex??? See mom, I know exactly what I want...